Energy flows where attention goes. Put it somewhere useful !
These last weeks I have been learning a valuable lesson : energy flows where attention goes, so put it somewhere useful. Very often I have been caught up in situations that are not satisfying and yet I have been “putting myself through it” trying to force things to work etc. The thing is, sometimes (quite often) it is a better idea to let go and let things change, re-arrange in to a new pattern that is more harmonious, pleasurable and satisfying.
In order to do this however, you have to be prepared to let go of your old habits and self-definitions and this can be challenging at times. I believe that it is worth it however. It makes me feel alive and happy. What more can I ask for?
And if I don’t do it then I lock myself up into a knot and suffer. Quite often I have ended up feeling like I was “pouring my energy down a black hole”, and that is indeed what was going on. Now I know that by choosing to focus on different things I can stop pouring it down a black hole and start doing something else with it, something that makes me feel happy, come alive and grow.
I learned this lesson thanks to many mirrors that showed me these aspects of myself. For example, there was a friend’s aunt who spent her whole life “in love” with a priest, “waiting for him” and therefore grew old without having a very satisfying love life. There was my own personal relationship (that I recently ended) that was causing me more stress than it was pleasure. There was my band in which we have been arguing more than playing these recent weeks. And my house that I was scared of leaving because it meant giving up all guarantee of having my own space to practice music in (I am staying with friends over the summer, don’t know after that...). All of these mirrors (and many more) showed me that the world was bursting to change, while I was trying to cling to my established landmarks, resisting change and suffering as a consequence.
The good thing is, I was also quite sick (I had many weird and unpredictable swellings all over my body) so I eventually questioned everything in order to find a solution to my health issues and eventually I found one. Not only has my health improved, my life has.
What I did was simple, I took the time and listened. I listened closely to my innermost desire (before it gets put into thoughts and complicated) and followed that. It guided me to focus on different things. As I did this my whole point of view changed shape. As Serge King says in his great book “Urban Shaman” : “Energy flows where attention goes”. I have experienced this to be true. My message is this : put your attention where it most needs to be. And in order to work out where that is, don’t use your mind. Use your whole being.
Until now I have very often been afraid to end personal relationships that I have been in. Now I know that when you change your focus, your whole inner world changes shape. So when it’s healthier for me to forget someone, I just do it. Because I know that there will always be love within me and around me and I will always be able to enjoy sharing it. If one person seems so special now it’s just because I have focused my attention on them in a given way. If I change that focus then I can and will feel the same about someone else... It feels so good to know this, so good to be free.
Until next time, I wish you all the very best.
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Reply #1 on : Sat September 17, 2011, 15:58:21