Caring and not taking life seriously

I have been pretty sick this last week, angioedema appearing randomly all over my body... so I decided to try doing an active imagination session to find out what the psychological root of my illness is. I found that what came out was pretty interesting and worth sharing so here it is (It’s about caring and not taking life seriously). In this session I am having a dialogue with the root of my illness. My sentences start with Rob : and the answers I get from the Archetype(s) start with Arch :. Enjoy the read and I hope this may help both me and you and become and remain healthy !

How caring aligns you with Life Energy
(A.I session).

Rob : My body is swelling up all over the place in a seemingly random fashion. You who are causing this, please can you tell me who you are and what you want ?

Arch : No you don’t deserve to know.

Rob : Why not ? Can you tell me somethings I do deserve to know ?

Arch : Because you’re mean to me. Yes you deserve to know that it hurts to be thrown in a corner and ignored. You deserve to know how painful it can be to be paralysed. And you deserve to know how resilient things like me are to being starved, that is why I encouraged you to fast - so you can see that even without food for 3 days you just keep on going...

Rob : What can I do to acknowledge and feed you - to make things better for you ?

Arch : Are you talking about this moment or about forever ?

Rob : I am talking about both this moment and forever. I think I have had sufficient experience out of this illness to learn the lessons you have just mentioned I deserve to.

Arch : ah haa ! but will you learn them? At the moment I see you playing with the idea, picking it up, putting it down again... that is why your illness is doing the same.

Rob : Ok. Then please can you give me a very very clear explanation of what I must adopt, what ideas I must understand, from now on in order to make things better and heal my illness ?

Arch : Yes I can. The first thing you have to do is breathe. Nothing is ever more important than breathing. And here is the key, you are a being of great depth, and within that depth there is a lot of things. Lately you have been choosing to ignore that depth and let yourself be constantly and ever more distracted by what is going on on the surface and in the outside world. Although you had part of the picture right when you decided to “take life as a game”, there is part of the picture you missed out on - a vital part.

Arch : There are two ways of not taking something seriously : either you care or you don’t care. Caring means you are connected to the world and to the depth of your being. When you don’t care, obviously you don’t take life seriously, but you are not connected to life and to the depth of your being - to your vital life force. Life force does care, and to align yourself with it you must also care. Observe nature, the minute cellular structures on each and every leaf of a huge oak tree that enables it to breathe for example. Do you think that “that which makes the tree alive” would bother going to that much detail if it did not care? When you care you are saying yes to life ! When you don’t care you are saying no to life. So if you want to be healthy, start caring.

Rob : How can I care and treat life as a game at the same time ?

Arch : By giving without expecting anything in return. When you want to help someone and you give them something, if you really care, what counts is that you do what you can to help. If in the end they don’t use what you gave them or if it does not work, you need not be affected. The same is true for you. Say you are in a difficult situation and you want to find a way out. If an attempt you make fails, be at peace. You made an attempt to change things ! Now you can make another one. Be grateful for what you have learned and give yourself the space to be playful and creative with what is at hand.

Arch : What can stop you taking life as a game is expecting a specific outcome every time you do something (in other other words, every time you give something to the world). Caring does not mean beating yourself up when things don’t work out how you wanted them to. Caring means knowing deep within yourself what reality you want. Caring is knowing deeply within yourself what your motivations are.

Arch : It’s just like when you play a board game, you know why you make every move - to win, but it does not mean you take it seriously if you make mistakes or if you lose. You can feel great about losing as long as you know that every one of your actions was determined by a crystal clear intention to win.

Arch : Caring is having a crystal clear intention to follow what you really want, what you want from the depth of your heart, what you want with your whole being. With this as your motivator to take action you can then “not mind what happens”, you can become detached from the outcome. You can live life as a game.

Rob : What if I have difficulty knowing what I really want ?

Arch : Then you have to connect more deeply with your whole being.

Rob : How can I do that ?

Arch : As I said, breathe. Still the mind and investigate what truths you find inside, what feelings you have, and observe calmly. This is not something you can do once in a while, it must be an ongoing process. If you want to be fully aligned with life energy and acting with it rather than against it, then you need to be connected with your whole being and crystal clear in your intentions all the time.

Rob : Thank you for explaing this to me.

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